Trying to let go

This past week, I was crop-dusted four days in a row at the gym, and I couldn't help but think how great life would be if everything came with a warning sign. That way, I’d know ahead of time that someone was about to rip ass and could evacuate the area immediately.

Warning signs would have told me a friend was awful before it got ugly, not to say yes to a terrible night out that would lead to extreme hangxiety, or even what decisions I should make now to get where I want to be next year. But then, my shower thoughts kicked in and I changed my mind. As great as warning signs would be, they would take the fun and important lessons out of life. Without realizing someone was fake, I wouldn't have met my best friend. If I had known about the hangover anxiety I'd face, I wouldn’t have that hilarious story to tell now. Knowing exactly what "decisions" to make for a perfect future would eliminate the anticipation and excitement of starting a new chapter. As great as signs seem, maybe they're just making me overthink — and missing out on the beauty of embarrassing now.

Enjoy this pic I have from the Wynwood Walls (lolll)

When I think of embracing the present, my mind automatically believes that means spending less time on my phone, enjoying the people around me, or going outside and being thankful for a sunny day. But it’s also about accepting the challenges I am currently facing. Let's be honest, not having signs guiding me through post-grad life has made me forget about now. Sometimes, I find myself comparing my path to others and becoming overly consumed by the social timeline I’ve unintentionally placed on myself. Next thing you know I have dug myself into a hole, focused only on the future, and shortly after, I’m spiraling. Yes, if I had warning sign I would probably not be spiraling, but where's the fun in stable.

I can't believe I'm about to quote an old coach of mine, but something he said that stuck with me is, "There’s no such thing as a bad day, it's just a bad moment." Bad moments are not indicative of who I am; it’s just something I need to fight through now.

Here are some fun life updates:

1. Currently, I'm struggling to stay present and use a growth mindset, but soon everything will work out. Hopefully, I’ll be able to take my own advice.

2. I love metaphors they're better than emojis.

xoxo,

Giulia

PS. Two weeks in a row lets see how long I keep this up.